Death Becomes Us (EP)

by Euthanized Horse

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Pencil Neck 02:30
God damn, don’t hit so hard Lost my ally in the yard Saw the sky in green and black You left him in the swamps Pencil neck – you call us now 40 years too late Pencil neck – you’ve no idea What’s at stake He was alone he left him dry A fucked up kid in war fatigues You say a lot about regrets But I don’t believe it I can’t believe it.
Estrella 02:50
No words
Winds blow the ghosts Winds blow the ghosts To me
Blasted 01:10
Tolleson at the 101 Sun stroke in a parking lot Wind so dry I cough and choke Shoes melt to the tarmac The palms are sick And we are sick The light is too much Our hearts are reeling We play games and circumscribe But we saw the black mass Wind so dry I cough and choke Shoes melt to the tarmac
Sorrow Swallowed By what we can't see Death becomes us In the dark


My father died in a Phoenix area hospital on September 1, 2015. This album is about my summer in Phoenix, about me trying to keep my Dad alive.

We didn't get along, not very well. I hated my father at times, and didn't like him much. He was angry, loud and self-righteous. If he felt threatened, which was often, he would put you down. I will not offer excuses for him. He was an original, and he had his moments.

When I was thirteen, we went to Jewel-Osco for some food and Jewel's manager accused me of stealing candy. I vehemently denied this, because I did not steal candy (that time). Dad had my back.

Once, at the Venice pier, I laid into a fishermen for pulling the stinger off a sting-ray. I called the fisherman an asshole. The man was angry, but Dad had my back.

When my mother died, I needed my Dad. And, for the first time, due in part to his disability, he needed me. We drove from Miami to Chicago to Miami in the summer of 2011 so I could help him dismantle his garage and clean up his apartment. It was good. We talked. It was a break-through. He didn't understand me, and I didn't understand him, but, sometimes, we found common ground.

When I was fifteen, I gave him a copy of Slayer's Reign in Blood. He loved it. This surprised me. No one in my family gave a shit about metal, but he understood.

Bill Bendell, you fucker. I love you.


released October 22, 2015



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Euthanized Horse Albuquerque, New Mexico

Desert Noir Grind/Thrash/Punk recorded on a Tascam 8-track in a small house on the edge of the sagebrush wastes of central New Mexico.

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